Returning to this life, I thought, was a mistake. The last thing I knew was the Lord saying to me, “You will be in Heaven with me forever.” So, a battle ensued in my life as to a love and hate relationship with God. As I grew in this life, I realized that seeing the ‘grey fog around the faces of Jesus and Francis was my own [feedbackloop], if you will, giving me information to future endeavors, as to what would eventually follow in the proceeding life ahead of me, that I hadn’t known yet. The obscured faces were due to how I would or would not be accepted in the Christian tradition, or the Franciscan tradition to follow in the footsteps of St. Francis. It came to pass, neither would happen in this lifetime…meaning I would not be accepted to the Franciscan order of friars, nor be fully accepted in the Roman Catholic tradition, as a true Christian (Mystical / Esoteric Monk) in search of my own innate divinity in Christ. I had to go through a conversion of spirit in this life time to understand what reality really is…and how to find it (Life) the sacred contract will be revealed to you. Thus, this is the reason why I am here; to guide you, and to teach you the steps as to help you to return to your own true divine nature-hood.
