[1] https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Chiron#cite_note-2
Part Two—
It is a survey and the written components that speak to my life in this narrative; from the title, Chiron: “The Wounded; [of the Cosmic] Healer,” I see myself as a ‘care-apist, rather than a therapist. In our own woundedness, we can become a source of life for others, to the conclusions derived from this research of consciousness, my own.
Its purpose is to explore the irregular path toward spiritual growth, and my goal is to demonstrate that personal integration is necessary for a new life experience, such as a Near Death Experience (NDE), which alludes to my, ‘Near Life Experience.’ Specifically, I believe the purpose of life is to explore personal emotional and spiritual wholeness to inner growth toward effective inner clarity in one’s wholeness to Christ consciousness or in the Eastern Vedantic (Hindu); kriya/shakti tradition(s) within.
Moreover, from my personal environment and living and processing through modernity as an individual young man who is unable to make a distinction between fragmentation to self and his personal milieu in society and to my self-differentiation to wholeness was gone. The mindset toward the distinctions to self was very confusing, mixed with fantasy and reality. My mom (my Father was not in the picture), was concerned but had her own issues. I came from a different world than theirs, and at the same time felt alienated from my own self, losing meaning to this world.
I offer the reader the inner dynamics of spiritual integration through the journey toward self-discovery; a supportive role to integration that empowers one toward insight for transformation and effectiveness in life. In addition, I offer the reader an intrinsic search for a person knowing that brings us a dramatic way that intimates emerging transformative consciousness through a social/spiritual lens to view the condition of experiences in the most honest way. The proceeding four stages I relate to the reader, speak to the nature of the wounds of the healer toward locating new understanding giving life in a world reflecting the pattern of experiences vs. feelings not to be understood by individual psychopathology, but on the historical context in which we live that allude to our emotional and spiritual condition. I will attempt to answer this question and offer an individual the evolution and way of condition of our wounds within the context of modernity versus the unity which leads to the transcendent wholeness of self.
Section ONE—
This section speaks of the power of awareness and of the clarity of being, that in the process of our suffering in life, one comes from possible disintegration to a synthesis of integration toward the condition of wholeness within a suffering world. Many people wish to have greater wholeness in their lives, but they may not be aware of how close they are to this reality. People are motivated by past mental (karmic/current) pictures in life rather than allowing themselves to move in the direction of their positive dreams. Self-esteem issues can cripple one’s decision-making processes which in meditation can lead to well-being. Goals are simply not clear since they are non-existent. The writer delves into these in two parts:
- The predicament of my experience toward wholeness and transcendence 2) Pathway to liberation.
— One: Predicament of my integrating wholeness and experience transcendence allude to a) “Historical Dislocation” to lost naïve faith from one generation to the next, b) to possibilities of modernity that enable me to create new cosmic and transcendent life; rather, my journey toward potential power to disintegration appeared increasingly real, at the same time groping for a new future for meaning-making and purpose, toward integration. For me, my paralysis was losing my source to my own sense of creative intelligence, vs. a sense of immortality; ways of being, on the one hand, at the same time I had this willingness to stay open to create possibilities in search for new immortality on the other.
- Dislocation and coming to a place, born into my parent’s world, will attempt to create my own. I believe that in the process one will come to acknowledge self to be the experience of living, but I am the last who feels the disintegrating experience from family and historical conditions and coming to an end to a life cycle having feelings of paralysis and coming to a placement of desolation and destruction. Moreover, I will feel more alienated and betrayed by the conditions of the family as well as religious traditions and at the same time grow toward chaos and possible tragedy, looking for options.
- In the journey, I begin to exhibit a fragmented identity, and fixed ideology and am confronted with paradoxical human experience, at the same time in search for new immortality. However, these historical experiences of immortality sent me on a path toward disintegration instead of integration, thus, I was confronted with this human experience. Nevertheless, my willingness was to remain open to creating new possibilities on the spot looking for experience and a sense of value to a reality that did not seems real at all. Two: Way to Liberation through Transcendence This dynamic process concerns itself with stages or pathways to cosmic consciousness, and to human integration and transformation along life’s journey, and reveals a course towards synthesis through the holistic path toward one’s effective integration. In search for the Essence of Self, one finds ways of being to considerations:
